I wish I was talking about 10 lbs.
This story should be entitled "Confessions of a Slave-o-the-kitchen Mom".
I lost it with my girls. Truth be told, I'm not happy with myself and embarressed that I couldn't hold it together. I sometimes feel like my life stays in sync because of my ability to juggle a thousand things at a time. To be the chipper one in the family. To keep everyone on schedule - all while keeping a hop in my step. Not this time. And, the reason was stupid.
S-T-U-P-I-D.
Oh, if you were a fly on the wall in my home lately, you would know that I've been a slave to snacks and meals....and kids that are not 100%. My precious Sweet Cheeks hasn't been feeling her best. Some kind of stomach distress that hasn't developed into anything else....if you know what I mean. These waves of nausea and/or cramping come over her and she requires food instantly. Mostly Ramen noodles have been soothing the nauseating beast. So, off I run to the stove to prepare the high sodium noodle soup. I don't mind serving my family....especially when someone is ill.
Sugar Nugget is on antibiotics for a major cough and fluid in both ears. Plus, she got food poisoning from eating sushi. I guess her little stomach isn't quite old enough to stomach it.
It just seems like this has been going on and on....and on.
Oh, I digress. Back to the story.
I walked a plate of homemade banana bread and their favorite drinks to the living room and I spilled. This turned me into an ogre of sorts.
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As you know, spills require clean up. And, it seems that is all I've been doing lately. Cook, clean, cook, clean, do laundry, clean, manage the household, clean, homework, cook.
This mom needs a b-r-e-a-k.
After cleaning up the mess, I apologized to my girls for losing my patience. Then I prayed. I separated myself from the situation and prayed. I thanked Him for my beautiful daughters. I asked for patience. I asked for a loving heart. I asked to be a good servant.
Things started off much better in the morning.
God is good.
Galatians 6:9
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
Girl... I so know where you are coming from. Sometimes, there is a straw that just breaks it for us. Come over and chow today. Hang out in my dusty, noisy abode. It is all good. YOU are a fabulous mom. :)
ReplyDeleteDude you're preaching to the choir! Day before yesterday I told the kids "I need 10 minutes to make a quick phone call. Just hang out, eat your snacks and I'll be right back." Needless to say, she said something annoying, he yelled, she yelled back, he bent her fingers backwards, she screamed - and I lost my temper. I really, really, really try not to but sometimes Darth Vader erupts out of me and I want to give my kids SO MUCH MORE. But I also prayed about it. And I apologized to Stephen (the receiver of my temper) and together we promised to work on it. Ya know, this might be the subject for MY blog today! Thanks for the inspiration :-0
ReplyDeleteI completely understand! I feel the same way...I feel like all I'm able to do lately is make food and wipe butts. I lost it the other day and immediately knew it. I thanked God for that moment because I knew he was using that to show me what I had done so I could change it. Then I just sat in the car and prayed. Prayer is a beautiful gift He gave us.
ReplyDeleteBeen there, done that many times. We are human and you apologized. I think that speaks volumes when we apologize to our kids. You're a great mom. Have a great weekend.
ReplyDeletedid you steal my post? because i could have written this pretty much verbatim - we are all there sometimes -- it's just momhood! the kids love us unconditionally.
ReplyDeleteAmen and amen. He is good!!
ReplyDeleteCome see me.
Oh, we have all been there, some of us just like to stay there a little longer, like me. I blew up at my son before school and honestly it was me being selfish because I so wanted to have my cup of coffee. I think it makes us normal. I realize now because I am a mother why my mother had moments. Your girls will understand some day!
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Wow! I'm not the only one? Mom's really have to talk more often about the good, the bad and the ugly! We are all in the same boat! I love that you apologized. They learn from us!
ReplyDelete**We are reading blogs at the same time tonight. Thanks for your comment and good wishes with the remodel. Excited but, THE DUST!!!
I do not know Nancy but do know Kristy. Preschool is probably the same. Area is probably the same. Are your girls playing softball? It will be funny when we all begin recognizing each other in restaurants, parks, supermarkets, ect. We should have a big playdate! Have a great weekend!
Just read Warrior Princess and now your description of turning into an ogre! It's happening to all of us! Maybe a product of the long winter? Who knows. But you did the right thing -- prayer will always provide a respite. And of course apologies to the kids always helps, too!
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